“Your Marriage Won’t Last”

There are 3 things I would change about my wedding day.

1. I cried uncontrollably from happiness. I wish I could have shed a few less tears. But it’s funny now.
2. I had fresh flowers. I have allergies. Crying + allergies = Inability to breathe well.
3. I would have only had 2 bridesmaids.

Overall, my wedding day was perfect. It was a wonderful day of celebrating the next chapter of my life with Joe. A few minor things happened but that is to be expected. We were surrounded by people who loved and supported us. Or so we thought.

My maid of honor was my sister Ashley. We weren’t really friends at that time in our lives but she was in my wedding because she was my sister and I knew I could always count on her.

My friend Nicole was a bridesmaid. We have been friends since 6th grade and I wanted her to stand up with me on my big day.

My friend Christine was my 3rd bridesmaid. We met at church and had been friends for as long as I can remember.

When the time came for me to get married, I knew I wanted Ashley and Nicole as bridesmaids. I felt obligated to ask Christine because we had been friends for so long and I had stood up in her wedding the year before. We hadn’t talked much since her wedding but it felt right to have her stand up at mine.

Months after the wedding, my friend Nicole and I were chatting and it got brought up that on the day of my wedding, Christine told Nicole she didn’t think my marriage would last.

ON MY WEDDING DAY.

I’m not quite sure why she agreed to be apart of my wedding if she didn’t think my marriage would last. She wasn’t the friend I thought she was. She wasn’t honest, kind, or caring.

I think it’s important to be honest with people that you love. Be honest with them in the most loving and kind way. Respect their decisions but don’t hide how you feel from them. That’s the kind of friend I want in my life and that’s the kind of friend I try to be. I’m an all or nothing kind of friend. You get 100% from me because if I love you, I love you with my whole heart.

I never approached her about what she said. We never spoke again after my wedding.

Life changing events seem to be when you see people’s true character. The pressure is on in those times and it shows you who they are. People don’t always respond how we hope they will. People aren’t always who we thought they were. Sometimes people change and they don’t fit with us anymore.

That’s okay. I say that for you but I’m saying it for me too. It’s so hard for me to let go of people. Once I let you in, I want you there forever. I love deeply, care deeply, over think stuff, and worry. I love people so much and there are many I miss. But sometimes, there comes a point, when holding on hurts more than letting go.

One thing I wouldn’t change about my wedding day:

The wonderful man I married.